1.2.3.

Everyday seems the same to me. Waking up, late, not being able to sleep much.

Everytime my eye closes, images of you keep flippin through my head.

Am I crazy? I wish i was.

Today i asked myself. Why live when I'm in such pain? Why?

First thought was like, no balls to end my pain. LOL.

Your just like a bitch and an emotional abuser.

Your in the wrong, yet I don't know why I myself is in a fucking self-deprecating state.

Or do I need to work on my self esteem?

In our little game of deceit, we both managed to lie to each other so much, that words seems to be failing me.

I thought I could play on, with the thought on my mind, that you don't matter to me at all.

Or am I trying to delay the inevitable?

But that's the past. I gotta move on, w/ or w/o you.

Bye.

PS: I still can't figure out 23 yo and 20 yo mentality got what difference. -_-

The next stop.

Finally.

My TP life has finally ended. My GPA totally fucking suck. But idc. At least i'm gonna graduate.

I'm sad and happy at the same time. I felt that 3 and a 1/2 years in poly was not the least exciting but i enjoyed all the lessons and moments i had with all my friends and co. I don't wanna end my poly life, but there's nothing i can do at all.

Everything will come to an end finally.

The chalet on Sunday to Tuesday was fun. Xavier was the highlight of the chalet. He totally rocked it!

Well, results are gonna come out on 10th Sept, so i'm hoping for a pass on all my subjects, lol.

Ahmad - Pukimar and fucking bastard, but still nevertheless a great friend.

Ashlyn Sun - Drinker + Nonsense = Ashlyn. But still, very nice friend, and sorry for all the jokes, but you know i'm always just KIDDING.

Barry - Brother, i've graduated already, let's get our diploma certificate next semester togther.

Jason Phua - Fast eater.

Eugene - Brother, you better stop going kopitiam to drink beer can? But hey bro, thanks for every tests and quizzes you've taught me.

Xavier - You finally grown up, you got so fucking drunk on the 2 day chalet. Thanks for being a joke in my poly life.

Zhiwei - You ccb. I spent most of my time in TP at staircase smoking with you. But goodluck taking your last CDS next semester. Cheers for our friendship.

Mon - Fuck you.

Bryan - Let's go sing K again sometimes. And im gonna beat you to death.

Yvonne - Lin Jun Jie -_-' But hey, thanks for helping me in my exams!

Junaidi - Xcn player. Great scammer.

Ken - Kettler strong man. It was a short time with you and Junaidi, but still you guys are still good friends to me regardless of the time we have known. You two better watch out, later i Xiao Li Fei Dao you two, confirm you all died. Passion to die.

I don't wanna end like this.

But still, time will never stop just for me.

3 cheers for our friendship in poly.

Goodluck in life you fucking bitches.

The next stop.

Will finally come.

icantbestopped.

BCGH_/

SOSOSO FREAKING TEMPTING.

I'm just so freaking tempted.


Fuck. -_-''

It's been a really long time since i blogged. Main reason was playing a fucking game that fucking ate my time.

Well time really flies, about one month, i'll be graduating from Temasek Polytechnic. I'm glad that i am SO able to graduate, while at the same time sad.

BECAUSE I GOTTA FUCKING GO NS SOON AFTER. -_-

Well im not a pussy or anything, just that, it's so freaking hard to take it when my hairs get raped, and sleeping with a bunch of guys in a bunk.

This sem will be my last one, it will finally mark the end of my school life. Idk if i'm going on to further my studies after NS, but i hope to.

Imagine all the girls in University. It's just plain, WOW.

I can't imagine how long i've endured studying, Kindergarten, Primary School, Secondary School, Polytechnic.

Fucking 15 and a half years.

HOW THIS I ENDURE THIS FREAKING MASSIVE CHAINS OF STUDYING?!

Study life, i'll max give myself a round more of University if i can. But that's all. No more freaking mindless memorizing of those lengthy notes.

Talking about study life, it lead me to my love life.

Well my love life is not even worth a penny to be inquired into.

I don't support "emo-ing" ! But still my love life is like $%#&^%&^**(*(#$%#%.

Maybe it's just prolly my bad, since i tend to neglect alot.

Maybe at my age right now, it's just puppy love.

I've always been asked by some of my previous GF's;

"If you say you truly love me, prove it?"

It's certainly a very intriguing question isn't it?

What if i say, i'll die for you, who would believe it until the day i decided to die for you?
None.

Maybe just cause my love hormones died for that particular, which in my sense it dies out pretty fast -_-


I'll just stop here for today i guess.

Pce.

icantbestopped.

BCGH_/

I Promise.

I promise to love you only. And for fucks sake I won't break that.

Trust me.












BCGH_/

Wtf.

Tomorrows my Public Speaking presentation, and i was looking for my fucking msword speech. I couldn't find it, and decided to check my hotmail sent outbox, cause i sent it to my teacher once. And i found it.

Upon finding the fucking msword shit. Something intrigued me. It was an old email to a girl like 2 years ago.

Well, i don't think i got the rights to mention who she was, but i think it's okay for me to post a part of what i have written.




So many thoughts,
I don't know where to begin,
I'll start from my heart,
and what I feel within.

I still have feelings,
which haven't changed,
because when you left me
my life was re-arranged.

I used to cry
so many times a day,
but lately those tears
have been fading away.

I am hoping that
my brighter day soon will come,
and maybe, just maybe,
I'll find that special someone.

Yes, it's been hard,
but I'm getting back my life,
I've even managed
to put away the knife.

I will find someone
who's right for me,
who loves me
and lets me be all I can be.

Yet the thought of you and him,
is tearing me apart,
because you will always have a special place
in my broken heart.

Do I still love you?
Yes, I do,
but another part of me
is getting over you.

I never thought I would say this,
but I simply have to confess,
with each and every day that goes by,
I love you less and less.

I just wanted to be with you,
but now you're gone,
and the time has come
for me to move on.

You meant so much to me,
in fact, you still do,
from the bottom of my heart,
I loved you too.

But what i can do now, is to promise you that,
Whenever you need me, ill be there.
Whenever your feeling low, ill be there.
Whenever you feel like crying, i can lend u my shoulders.
Whenever you need a listening ear, ill be one.
Whenever you need someone to talk to, ill be there.
Whenever someone bullies you, ill be there for you.


我可以.

-
With love and care forever,
Bryan.

Ps: It's not the full version. I cant write the full version, sorry.


I lol'ed. How the fuck was i so romantic last time? LOL.

G.

Help.

G.

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